Coulture
I was in an abusive relationship that lasted the better part of a year. After a long time of hiding, of not wanting to share my story, I have realized that telling this story could help someone.
He likes being close to you and will make sure you know how much he loves you, even while being swept away by dreams. Even if he is fast asleep, he will respond when you whisper, “I love you.” Some part of his brain will always be awake when it comes to you.
I felt an overwhelming sense of awareness wash over me. It felt like a wall had been blocking a part of my being, a wall I never saw before but had just, in an instant, fallen down. It may sound ridiculous or exaggerated, but I genuinely felt physically lighter.
After a lot of tears and moments of are we really going to do this?, my boyfriend and I decided it was best to break up. Long-term, we wouldn’t survive, and we both felt that it was better to break up now before our relationship had time to sour and go bad, forever discoloring our perception of each other.
“Love Talks” is a new Coulture digital series which will cover all kinds of topics ranging from breakups to self-love and any and all things dealing with relationships. As a disclaimer, the advice provided is not professional in any way –– these articles will be written from personal opinions based on experiences. “Love Talks” will be a collaborative effort from Coulture writers featuring different perspectives, but the authors will remain anonymous. We start today with the topic of long distance relationships for our first column.